Today, in Japanese history class, I had a thought. Here I have a confession to make. I JUDGE PEOPLE. I am actually judgmental. See how bad I am and can you think of anything worse ? Yes, I can. The worse and worst thing is that I ambarely able to dissemblewhat is in my mind. Exactly the same process as a computer. Input, Process, finally Output. I input information via 5 senses, mainly sight. The information is then sent to process and it finally results in my behavior. So what is being thought in my head automatically transfers and transforms into my action. Is it a big deal ? Absofuckinglutely ! You know what ? At first sight, youcan get a crush or fall into eternal love. On the contrary, I can even detest someone because of the way he commence conversation. This is really putting me into terrible trouble.

Well, I spent a whole day trying to figure out what the hell is going on with me. Am I insane ? No, I aint, for sure. Where does the judgement thing come from ? I just have no idea.All I realized is thatthis matter is relevant to the question " Am I pesstimistic ? ". And for the record, I am optimistic.Probably, I might be an optimist who is just being pesstimistic off and on.

Have you ever heard a song that touches your soul,exhilarates your spirit,and melts you away the moment you hear ?

I have, "The closer I get to you" for a very good example.I fell in love with the sweet voice of Roberta Flack at once. The emotional melody, the sweet lyric, the superb duet, ... and everything belonging to this song really grasped my heart.

I would like to thank an eligible 20s New Yorker, P Wan for sending me such a fabulous stuff. Do you hear about VH1 Save the music campaign concert held last month ? One of performers was the biggest selling female artist in the history and my alltime favorite singer, Mariah Carey. Asa huge fan,Imanaged to check her site out and then knew that she wasshowing the great rendition on that stage. The stuff I received wasthe VDO clip file ofthe performance on that stage called "With you Im born again". And I listened and I was like Stop! stop! Im about to melt away and be born again ! Really I was.To me, it was one of the most heartfelt shows I have ever seen.It was the duet song with John Legend, a singer and songwriterthat I have never ever heard even his name. Anyway, the thing I like most was that voice of Mariah that sometimes husky and sometimes silky that is stretchier than elastic and yet simultaneously accurate to at least ten decimal places.I might be exaggerating but I was feeling like I was listening to an adorable angel cheerfully singing in heaven!!!!!!!!!!It wasTHAT voice,that sort of voice, the incomparable voice in"Ill be there" and "Whenever you call". I absolutely want you all to listen and make comments on it. Unfortunately,I just do not knowhow to get you all to listen. I apologize.

And how about you all? Do you have this kind of experience?

Congratulations on WE BELONG TOGETHER, soaring

to No.7 at Billboard Top 100